the tears won't stop

I know one day the tears will stop.  I will stop crying.  The hurt will subside.

I may never forget, but time and distance will make it all easier to bear. 

But right now, this fucking sucks.


I just want to stop hurting.  I want my heart to feel whole again and not ripped to shreds.  I want to know that it is ok to love, to trust, to hope.  But nothing feels right at this moment. 

What do I do with this information?  I know you can help me to at least understand, but for some reason you won't. And that just turns this fucked up equation into nonsense. Total fucking nonsense.